Thankful for Lane

Lane had his last t-ball game yesterday. He got two great hits not off the the tee, but pitched to him!
The HIGHLIGHT of the whole t-ball season was getting the trophy yesterday!
He got home and began polishing it! Like father like son. Reese has always enjoyed polishing his boots, his wheels on his Jeep, and cleaning his rifles.
Speaking of daddy, he got Lane some cammies! He put them on as soon as he got them, took them off to sleep and wore them all day today too!

I am so thankful for Lane. I have so enjoyed watching him grow up and all the funny things he has done. Yesterday I watched him play outside by himself, imagining he was in the navy. He was doing the funniest things and I just sat there with a smile on my face watching him. This little boy and I have a bond that I am so thankful for. We have been through a lot together and although he doesn't realize it now, he has taught me alot. Watching him makes me wonder about all the things Case would have done. Watching your kids grow is the greatest gift that a mom can ever receive, it is priceless.

I am also thankful today because I am finally done with my online classes! I finished my last final this evening and boy does that feel good! We are now looking forward to doing some fun things week, including going to see Shrek. I know Lane is going to appreciate my extra attention. I am also thankful for continued healing and that I get to hear this little one's heartbeat tomorrow which is always so exciting. I ask you to pray for healing, that I would feel better and have more energy soon and for safety for our little family.

28 years, 6 Mother's Days, 12 weeks

This has been a hard week. One of changes and new adjustments (most of you know what that is), and also some special days. I recently turned 28. I am praying that 28 will be a year that brings hope, healing, and growth. This is my 6th Mother's Day. This is the first Mother's Day as a mom who has lost a child. At 28 years old that is very strange to me, although I am sure that is strange at any age. Being a mommy has taken on a different meaning to me now. It was always special, but now, it's special in a different way. This is my 10th Mother's Day without my mom. She is so missed.

This Mother's Day I also have reason to celebrate, I am 12 weeks pregnant. God blessed us with a new little miracle so soon after Case died. It's hard to grasp it all some days, but the moment I saw this baby at my ultrasound, it was real. There are so many feelings, emotions and fears that I have right now. Excited, yet afraid. So happy, yet so sad. I thank God for our new little blessing, our third child. Lane is very excited to have another baby, he say's he won't be alone anymore :( I am due November 16th. I ask you to pray for our family. Reese, Lane, this baby, me. God has a lot of work to do in me in these next 6 months to prepare me to be mommy to another baby. Please pray that He will do that and that I will allow Him to work.

Excuse the crooked picture. My photographer is five.