Sew Busy

I've been busy making things for this little girl as well as some other girls in our neighborhood.

I made some iron on fabric things with my cricut, some fusible webbing and fabric.

Burp clothes, bibs and blankets. This girl will be coordinated!

This little gift set for one of our neighbor girls 4th birthday was fun to make! I bought the shirt, cut the flowers out of fabric with my cuttlebug, and ironed them on with fusible webbing. It was fun to also be able to make a matching hairclip for her. I've never done much of this stuff, mostly because I didn't "think pink" very often. But now that I'm in the pink groove it seems like the possibilities are endless!

We have been keeping really busy with school and getting together with friends. Over the weekend we went up to L.A. because my friend Kristen had tickets to Women of Faith. Her husband watched Lane while we got to listen to some awesome speakers and singers. The highlight for me was listening to Natalie Grant sing. She sings "Held" the song we had played at Case's funeral. She performed that song as well as other great songs. It was no coincidence that she was there and that I was invited to go. When I accepted the invitation I didn't even know she would be there. She was awesome and she is pregnant, due just about 5 weeks behind me. The speakers were great, my favorites were Sheila Walsh and Karen James.

Alot of things stood out over the weekend. Sheila Walsh reminded me to love my family and friends fully without putting up a wall to protect myself. After suffering a lot of loss, it would be easy to build walls to protect myself by not giving fully of myself to the people I love. That way if someone hurts me or someone dies I wouldn't be hurt "as bad." But what kind of life would that be, I would never live life fully that way. When Reese and I decided that we would just pray that we would get pregnant in Gods timing, we took a risk, we jumped in with both feet. And when I found out I was pregnant just 2 months after Case died, it was scary. But I have told myself over and over again, if I didn't allow myself to love another child again, I would miss out on life, the life that God has orchestrated and planned for me and created for me to enjoy. So I chose to jump in with both feet, take a risk, trust God with my loved ones, even if there is a possibility that I could lose someone else.

Another thing that stood out to me was a a quote by Shakespeare that one of them made reference to. "Give sorrow words. The grief that does not speak whispers the o'er-fraught heart, and bids it break." This is something I have found so true through my journey of grief. It's not always easy to give my sorrow words. I find it hardest to actually speak them to people, it's easier to give my sorrow words through writing. Writing on here and journaling has brought much healing. It gets out all these thoughts in my head, all the feelings that I am not sure what to do with. The conference was great, just what I needed at this time in my life.