10 Days Old

Estelle is 10 days old as of last night! She is doing really well. Most nights she sleeps really well and goes about 4 hours in between feedings during the night. There have been a couple hard nights, but for the most part, it's been good. We've had Mop (Grandma Laura) here since Saturday, she was able to get into Seattle from Hawaii and get straight onto a flight to San Diego.

Reese and Estelle taking a little nap. Reese loves this little girl!
This is a typical awake face. Her pursed lips crack me up every time.
Lane kisses and snuggles her every chance he gets. This morning I came downstairs with her and he said, "Let me see that cute baby."

Tomorrow we will be having a quiet Thanksgiving at our house and then on Friday we will trim the tree (as Reese would say). This is our families favorite time of year. I am so thankful to be able to have Estelle during this time of year. It's is so strange to me that last year at this time we had Case to celebrate Thanksgiving and Christmas with and this year he is celebrating in heaven and we have Estelle. Life can change so quickly. The bible tells us to give thanks in everything even in the hard times. I am learning to do that this Thanksgiving.

Well Worth The Wait

Our little girl, Estelle Hope, was born November 13th at 8:19 pm. She weighed 8 lbs 14 oz and was 21 1/2 inches long. I was able to be induced on Saturday afternoon. My midwife was reluctant to do it because she didn't think she was real big and wanted me to go into labor naturally because of my previous c-section. Well, it needed to be done, obviously. My labor went fast, about 5 hours from the time they started pitocin to the time she was born. I barely got my epidural in time. She was born less than an 1 1/2 hrs later. Everything went quite well, other than not really getting the full effect of the epidural.

This is the first baby that I was able to just hold on my chest and enjoy. Lane was born by c-section and Case's blood oxygen levels were low so they took him from me pretty quickly. Tears of joy were soon streaming down my face as I got to just enjoy staring at our darling baby girl.
My friend Kristen drove down from LA that night. She got to see Estelle just a couple hours after she was born. Kristen, like so many others, has been such a blessing to our family. She has prayed so diligently for us and often sends me encouraging emails with verses she has found etc. I know she just couldn't help driving down when she knew I was in labor. :) Kristen took this picture of us while Estelle was just hours old..
The next day Aunt Lesha flew in. We introduced Estelle to Lane and Lesha that morning. Lane was very happy to have his baby sister here. He said the he "liked the baby" and proceeded to give her lots of kisses and touch her face as much as possible.
Our sweet little "big" girl Estelle. Check out those rolls on her arms!
Aunt Lesha brought this adorable little outfit that Estelle wore today. She was wide awake alot today.

My emotions/hormones/anxiety levels have been so much better than I expected. It's still early, but I am taking one day at a time and so far, so good. I thank God for the peace that I feel. I am able to sleep, when Estelle lets me, without worrying too much. I know this has to do with a whole lot of prayers being said!

39 + 2

Wow, I am 39 weeks +2 days! I have never been this pregnant before. I prayed that I wouldn't have her before 37 weeks because Case was born right at 37 weeks. But really? I had Reese take this picture of me this morning (actually he took 4 before I liked one enough to post!). My mirror does not make me look this big! This picture makes my stomach look enormous! That must be why people keep staring at me! I have to say I am not that uncomfortable, I am uncomfortable but it could be worse. I still can sleep pretty well at night and that in itself is a blessing. But as time goes by my help is dwindling. Reese's parents leave on vacation soon and Lesha is coming this weekend. I am going to try to be induced before Lesha comes. Pray that they will let me be induced! I don't so much need the physical help, but more the emotional support after I have her. So pray, pray, pray people!

Reese and Lane in Oct. 2007

Today, being Veteran's Day, I am thankful for my man who serves. Not only does he serve, but he is awesome at what he does! It takes a special man to do what he does, one with integrity, patience, and strength of body and mind. He represents all of these things.

Reese and I in May 2009

(and Case is in my belly :)

Halloween

Lane brought a picture home from school the other day. He said his teacher had them draw what they wanted to be for Halloween and he drew Darth Vader. Before he ONLY wanted to be a storm trooper, the costume was $40, yeah right. So we asked him if he wanted to be Indiana Jones again, sure. So when I saw the picture he drew, I thought hey that one was cheaper. The next day I went to the Navy Exchange where all the Halloween stuff was 40% off and got his Darth Vader costume for $5.99, score!

Lane and Reese carved a cool, scary pumpkin. I didn't feel much like doing it this year, but I did roast and eat the pumpkin seeds. We just hung out here and took Lane trick or treating around the neighborhood. We saw a lot of his friends and he got plenty of candy!

I am excited to have a baby in November! We have ALOT of October babies in our family, so this will change it up a bit. This will be my first baby that actually has made it to the month that they were due!

I had to include Lane's school picture. I have cracked up every year when his school pictures come home. First preschool, then last years, and now this year, complete with one missing tooth and one tooth hanging by a thread. He has that same forced smile in all of them. So cute!

Lane is 6!

My how time flies! I cannot believe that Lane is 6. I just love his little morning face and messy hair! He is big into Nutella. He wants it on toast every morning. So for his birthday breakfast he had "chocolate toast" with birthday candles in it.
We did not plan a party for Lane. We didn't want to make any for sure plans. So that day while Lane was in school we made a Lego brick cake and went and got some balloons. We also invited a couple of his friends over to play and have cake after school. It was nice and didn't take any planning which was exactly what I needed!

This guitar is Lane's favorite toy right now. His cousin Kai had one when he went to visit him and he thought it was the coolest thing. It plays 3 songs and he has to strum the guitar to make it play the guitar music. We have been rockin' out to Sweet Home Alabama for the last 3 days!
And of course, he loves his Legos. Thanks Hunter and Kristian, this helped mom and dad get off the hook for not getting him any Legos for his birthday :)
Lane was happy that his little sister wasn't born on his birthday. Not much progress to report in that area. I went to the doctor on Tuesday and not much has changed. How long can you be dilated to a 4? I guess I will find out :) Now she is full term so she can come anytime. I really wanted to make it to 37 weeks and now we have! Maybe she will be my stubborn one and go to 40 weeks. I wouldn't be surprised. Thanks for everyone's prayers. I am pretty much out of my funk, I am going to try to get some stuff done with the time I have before she is born.

You know the saying "if you don't have anything nice to say, then don't say it at all." Well, I've been kinda quiet. Most of my close friends and family would say I don't normally live by that rule. I actually say a few too many things that are not nice and are probably better left unsaid. I am sarcastic, and sometimes I don't have a filter and things just fly out of my mouth. This past week I've just been in a funk. I still am. On Monday I had a doctor appointment, I was not quite 36 weeks at the time and already dilated to a 4. The midwife said she wouldn't be surprised if I had her within the week. I had both boys early, Lane at 38 weeks and Case at 37 weeks. As much as I want this little girl to be out of my oh so tired pregnant body, I do not want her to be considered "premature." If I can make it to this Tuesday, she will be full term. We were supposed to go on an all expense paid trip to Disneyland on Thursday-Saturday with Reese's work as a post deployment retreat. I was planning on going even if I just sat in the hotel room, that wouldn't have even been bad since it was at the Disneyland Resort Hotel for goodness sake! The kids had a Mickey Mouse farewell party yesterday with a bunch characters, John Voight was at the dinner on Thursday night. Grrrrrrr, we did not go. It was in this baby's best interest that we did not go. I know myself well enough to know that I wouldn't have just stayed in the hotel room the whole time and would probably have done "too much." I may have put myself into labor and it just would have been too early. Why am I so annoyed by this? I get a baby girl out of this deal! I think I am annoyed because this was not my plan. My plan was to have a 15 month old Case right now. We would have gotten through the deployment as planned and had fun at Disneyland with the family I had planned, Reese, me, our two boys. Don't get me wrong (I am misunderstood often). I am SOOOOO excited to have this baby. This little girl will bring so much joy to our family, I can't wait. God has different plans doesn't He. His plan is the best, whether I like it or not, whether I can see that or not. He promises to give me Peace along the paths HE has laid out for me, I just need to be willing to receive it. I think this baby hasn't come this week because God has a little more work to do in me first, in our family.

I am nervous to bring this baby home. As much as I would like bringing her home to make things "all better," it will not be all better. It actually may be a little worse for awhile. This is not just the normal welcoming another child into our family routine, it involves so much more than that. I can't even describe the emotions I am feeling and I am sure I can't even imagine what is ahead for me. I would love this to be a normal event, but it is not. Please pray, for an uncomplicated labor and birth, a healthy baby, and that we do this adjustment thing in the best way possible.

I have a little boy who is about to turn 6. They could share the same birthday, he is not too excited about that possibility. We are not doing a party for him here but Reese's family did a party for him last weekend while they were up in WA. Poor kid isn't even getting a new Halloween costume, Indiana Jones again this year. He doesn't seem to care though. He is so easy going, something I am so thankful for. We went to the community fall festival on Friday night, he won some billy bob teeth and went on some rides. We thought he was going to throw up on the ride below. Thankfully he did not, he gets car sick easily, I would not have been surprised! Not as good as Disneyland but he didn't seem to care, he still had fun.

35 1/2 weeks and SURPRISE!!

This is me, 35 1/2 weeks. It's been awhile since I've taken a picture and I am asking this little girl "How LOW can you go?" We have a busy next week. I have a doctor appt on Monday, we'll see how close we are then I guess. This time has flown by, I am excited, nervous, but excited. The anxiety has not been bad, not sure why, I think God has given me peace. I don't know how I will be once she is born, but I just pray for more peace as I take one day at a time.
Today I was surprised by a WONDERFUL group of women who I am so blessed to call my friends. They had a baby shower for me and actually pulled off a surprise one! I don't think I've ever been truly surprised like I was today. I have been blessed by some awesome girlfriends. Everywhere I move, God has provided the best of friends. I wish everyone could have been there, but since my friends live all over the country, that wasn't possible. Many took part in it from far away by sending messages that Kelly put in a scrapbook/journal for me and I was blessed by their "presence" in that way. Most of the girls that were there didn't even know each other. Some are neighbors, some are friends through Reese's job, some are internet friends :) And many of them were in cahoots with my sisters to plan this whole thing. How awesome it was to have all these friends from different areas of my life come together.

It has been such a blessing to be pregnant at the EXACT same time as Leah. Same due date, both girls. Can't wait to see these little girls grow together!

And do they know me or what? They had the shower at a tea room! It was very yummy and such a pretty little place!
Thanks girls for a wonderful day.